I can’t quite believe that you’re due in 5 weeks time, I might get to see you a little earlier, hopefully not much later, everyone’s already waging bets on what date you might arrive, do you know how excited everyone is?
I’ve dreamt of you for so many years, I don’t mean that we have been trying to conceive you for that long, I mean, ever since I was a little girl, it meant so much to me to have my own family. Some little girls dream of being a Princess, some dream about what their wedding dress might look like, I dreamt of you………
You were a girl back then, you were called Rebecca or Amy (depending on which day it was) and I clung to you like you might cling to your favourite blanket. I might not have held you properly, usually you dangled one arm by my side, and your bed might have been in a draw, but i loved you then and i love you more now.
When we saw the real you for the first time on the screen, you jumped and writhed, you made me cry, you made us both cry. I couldn’t believe that you were really exisiting in my belly and I couldn’t wait to meet you. We found out you were a boy on 17th November 2010, your daddy punched the air with delight, I, cried. Don’t worry, i was ecstatic, overwhelmed, emotional, so many things, that i just didn’t really prepare for whether you would be a girl or a boy. I didn’t think that Rebecca or Amy would quite suit you, so we started to think of names which would fit you perfectly.
So, here we are, everything is ready and waiting for you to arrive. You’ve got so many clothes already that I am hard pushed to believe that anyone could possibly have more in their wardrobe than me!
I might not know exactly what i’m doing at first, please bear with me, we’ll work something out together, right? Everything will be new for us all, you’ll have a new bed, a new room and new people to get used to, but we can do this, we’re a team now.
I promise that i will hold your head until you’re strong enough to do so yourself, I will clothe you, feed you, keep you warm and keep you safe. I’ll be there to hold you close when you cry and i’ll be there, ready to snap the camera when you laugh!
I pray that you will arrive safely and healthy. I can’t wait to meet you, we both can’t.
All our love
Mummy and Daddy xXx